Weekend Recap

My Weekend in one word. SUCKED.


I realized many things this weekend.

1. I shouldn't think I know someone or how they feel, because chances are I'm usually wrong and this thought I have will back fire on me.

2. I really shouldn't be surprised anymore when the pea brained retard hurts me, or ignores me for the night.

3. Some people just ARE NOT as good of dancers as they claimed they and their "partner" are.

4. When I'm mad and upset I have this very over whelming feeling of causing pain to the person. I want pain and blood. Basically I want revenge.

5. I truly believe in Karma and can not wait for this beauty to hit the pea brained retard.

6. He is dumb, he is out of chances. Game over.

And that was my weekend.
In the 2 short days I realized many things.
I also realized if some one were to ever push me over the edge, I would be out for blood.
My thoughts are constantly consumed with revenge.
I'm not sure how I will get revenge, but oh boy it will come and it will be sweet.

Here is too another Monday and hoping your weekend was better then mine.

Bring on the Heat

My goodness it's hot outside.

The only thing that would make this heat enjoyable for me, is if I was at the lake. Or floating the river.

I'm so tired of spending all my days cooped up inside while it's nice outside.

So depressing.

Hopefully this weekend I'll get a chance to soak in some sun.

Well have you?

Have you ever wished you could go back to a time, where things were better, happier. A time you could remember you had so much to look forward to, a time when you always felt like things were okay and they always would be.

If I could go back, where would I go?

There are a couple different times I could choose from....

Times where I remember feeling good about my choices, my future. Things were simple and happier.

Maybe here? July 2007

I remember being so excited for the future. We were in Bozeman for one of my dear friends weddings. It was a wonderful weekend full of love and friends. I remember being so happy for them and thinking they are so perfect for each other. They love each other very much, you could tell just by sitting in the room with them. The best part, is they still love each other to the moon and back.

I remember being so happy and giddy all weekend, waiting and being excited for what was yet to come that summer. My dreams, hopes were still alive. The possibilities were endless.

Or I could go here? July 2007

This is right after the ceremony of my friends wedding. I remember standing during the wedding watching my friend say her vows, this filled me with such excited anticipation. I remember looking at him and thinking "God, I can't wait to make this person my husband." " I can't wait for that day, I can't wait to be his wife, I can't wait for forever."
I remember thinking ahead to the future, the future was so bright. We could do anything. I wanted to go through life with him through babies, hard times, good times, I wanted to grow old with him. I had so many beautiful hopes and dreams I wanted to fulfill with him.

Or I wouldn't mind going here.

June 2006

This is at my best friends wedding. Things were so simple and happy.

I wasn't sure what my future would bring, but I knew I could handle it.

I was hopeful about everything. I was even prepared to move to another state to fulfill an old high school dream. Nothing was uncertain to me, nothing was scary.

Most of all I remember I was happy for my friend, and I was certain that I myself would find that one day as well. I didn't have any doubts or jaded thoughts.

Oh my how different things have turned out.

I've been thinking back to all these times in my life when I was happy. I wanted some pictures as visual proof. All the pictures I have, every single one (give or take 3) have Ryan in them.

He has been in my life for that long. He was there during all 3 pictures above.

It's not just a part of my life, but a huge chunk of my heart.

I'm at a cross roads, there are two paths.

One path I go by myself, leaving Ryan behind.

The other path leads me with Ryan. We do it together.

I know what my friends and family want me to decide.

I know what Ryan has expressed to me.

The problem? I Don't Know What I Want.

"What do I want?"

The simplest question in the world.

My answer either way will rip my world in too....

If I go with Ryan, my friends and family will not agree with me. And that's okay, but what if I make the wrong choice. Can I go to my friends and family for help, or will I get the cold shoulder? Will I get the "I told you so." Will I loose touch with these people I care about if I choose this?

If I go by myself, I'm leaving behind my heart, 8 years of my life. The person that I have loved for so long. The person I built all these dreams and hopes around. If I go by myself, I will have to let go off all my plans, all my hopes and dreams.

What if I make the wrong choice? I'm so scared that I will do the wrong thing. What do I want? Do I even really know what I want anymore? What do I want?

In order to avoid this all together I've been putting it off.

Instead I think back to times where my life was so easy.

Things were so simple and happy. Times where I felt free to dream and I wasn't scared.

I should have been a vet...

This morning I found a kitten outside our chicken coop. I wanted to catch it but the dog chased it away. Poor little thing was skinny.
So I put a whole bunch of cat food under the chicken coop where the little kitten ran.

Tonight I'm hoping I can see another siting. Although if I catch the little bean I don't know what I'll do with it.....
Correction, if I catch the little bean I will want to keep it and bring it in the house, and as we all know I already have 2 cats that reside at my house. I added these cats to my list of pets because we found them, they are both rescue kitty's. And when it comes to animals, especially animals who may be suffering, I feel sad for them and almost always welcome them into my home.

Everyday I'm woken up by my older cat meowing in my ear while she rubs her forehead against my chin. She lays on my chest.... not so very patiently for me to get up and feed her.
My other cat sleeps at my feet and attacks my feet if I move them ever so slightly....
He also like to be petted in the middle of the night. He prefers my chin to pet his head the best.

Can you imagine putting another kitten into the mix, not to mention the increased times I would have to clean out the cat box....

Oh man am I in trouble.
If you can't tell, when it comes to animals I'm a softy a total push over. I even named my chickens (Doesn't everyone?)
Speaking of which, did I ever tell about the time I saw a baby fox on the side of the road, he looked lonely sad and hungry. I don't know if he had a Momma or not.
It took everything I had to not stop and pick him up. He was so cute!
I may or may not have gone back later to look for him.

Weekend Recap

Friday.... I had to run to my parent's house for the day. Yes only the day. (Sorry, I didn't call my friends, but I was only there for less then 24 hours)
Such a long day, I spent most of it on the phone. Trying to help my Sister. Then I had to hope back in my truck and drive back home.

Saturday....
CAR WASH (in the rain)
We decided we were still doing it! It turned out to be a pretty nice day after all, it stopped raining granted it was cloudy all day, but we didn't have to worry about getting streaks on the vehicles.

That night I went out with some friends, because the Rodeo was in town and well you go out. That's just how it works in a small town.
I had fun, enjoyed $2.00 beers and even 1 shot.
Don't worry I behaved, and kept all my clothes on (not that I would ever shed them in public)

Sunday..... Happy Fathers Day
CAR WASH, the last day! It was a nice sunny day. We wrapped it up with a good water fight. And by we, I don't mean myself..... I'm a party pooper that way!
When everything was said and done, the girls had raised over $200.00 dollars for uniforms for the tournament!

We also enjoyed the "Fathers Day Parade" It was pretty good, there were some awesome cars, some guys playing bagpipes, candy was thrown, horses pooped on the road, it was everything a parade should be.

That night, I took a nap, ate some dinner, jumped on the trampoline, ate a brownie, watched some u-tube video's, did some laundry, sat outside, fell asleep outside but not in this particular order. Finally I went to bed.

There you have it folks. That is my weekend in a few small paragraphs.
On the agenda for this week.....
Getting my truck in the shop to get the dent my dear bosses children did.
Catching up on sleep
Catching up on laundry
Eating Ice Cream
Trying to find a money tree to plant out back
Getting uniforms ordered/ printed
Sitting outside and getting my vitamin D fill.
(Note to self, put sunscreen on your part, your scalp does burn and peel. Making it look like I have a horrible case of dandruff)

I Need a vacation.

This week at work has been a nightmare.
For one reason and one reason alone.

Our computer crashed.
They had to buy a NEW one.

I have spent the past two day trying to recover our lost files.
Finally today I did it. I saved the work day.

Now I'm frantically trying to get things finished.

At least I'm busy, this doesn't give me too much time to think about all the things coming up and all the big choices I'm going to have to make.

Seriously I'm stuck in the hardest spot I could ever imagine.
I just don't know what to do about it either, I'm at a standstill.

ugh...

I'm having one of those days.

You know the days where things are so busy, you can't get all the things your expected to get done on a daily basis finished.

Your so busy you can't seem to get off the phone.

It's usually during these days where the computer decides to bite the dust, or the chosen day to upgrade one of your programs. You know the ONE program you need to run the business and do your job.

I think tonight calls for Ice Cream, or Wine or both. Maybe even a fire so I can roast some marshmallows.

I can't believe it's only Tuesday. Good Lord, please help me get through this week.

After work, on the agenda...
Hanging Car Wash Signs like there's no tomorrow!

Weekend Recap

This weekend.... ahh where do I begin?

First off Friday....
What did I do on Friday?.... OH I remember.
I went to work (eh, boring)
Then I went to the last day of volleyball camp. (It was fun)
The only downer, I rolled my ankle... yeah it sucks. But I iced it and took some Advil.
I'm happy to report the ankle is doing better.

Saturday:
I went to town and spent way to much money. More then I wanted too.... but totally worth it. I got a new bathing suit and some things for the upcoming car wash (more on this later!)
Then I stopped at Verizon wireless, was there for an eternity and left with a BRAND NEW PHONE! I spent the rest of the evening playing with said phone trying to figure all the bells and button's out. All in All, it's a pretty sweet phone. Now I just need to get a cover for when I drop the darn thing.
I also ate a whole bag of Cesar salad by.myself. Oh and don't forget the pork chop to go with it!

Sunday:
I hung outside, made some car wash signs (again, more on this later).
Then I decided to go to a friends, where we held a mini fishing tournament.
Luckily there were other's on my team who were actually good at fishing so we did pretty good overall.
Both teams tied with 4 fish caught each. However the other team kicked our butts in the size department, they caught fish and we caught Minos.
At the end of the night I roasted some marshmallows and ate some chocolate.
A great way to end a night. Except when you realize you have to go to work tomorrow.... I hate that part.

On the agenda this week:
Getting ready for car wash (again more on this later)
Getting work on the straight and narrow
Volleyball open gym
Continuing my cell phone education program

Here is to another Monday.

TGIF

My goodness work has been crazy. This week has been really busy.
I have been going, going, going, gone.

I'm so happy it's Friday.
The only thing to make this weekend sweeter is if I changed my phone number.
That was my biggest mistake to give the boss man and his wife my phone number.
AHHH They call ALL.THE.TIME.

I think I'm going to screen my calls and when they ask where I went I will tell them deep sea fishing in Africa.

On a better note:
My plans for the weekend? Nothing! And it's so wonderful.
I'm going to lay outside! Eat Ice Cream! Lay Outside! Make Sun Tea! Eat Ice Cream!
seriously this is what I have planned for this weekend and I couldn't be happier.

Volleyball Camp

Oh how I miss the days where I could sit on my can all summer long and eat whatever I like. Including Ice Cream once a day sometimes twice a day.

I miss the days where I could literally do nothing and go to the gym to play a little volleyball and be just fine.
Sure I would be tired but I could jump forever, I could still hit the ball hard, I could go on for hours and hours of volleyball and be just fine.

Those days are over. Those days are long gone.

Now I must train and work out and try like hell to get my butt in shape.
Oh lord how I miss being so young and agile. I miss being able to bounce back so quickly.

I miss being quick.

Yesterday at camp I went through a couple drills, immediately after I had to sit down, breathe, drink some water and eat some food to revive myself.
I think I may need to start working out again now so I'm in shape for the volleyball tournament in July.

This Time Last Year....

I was moving cows.

I had so much fun moving cows.

There is something so free about being on the back of your horse.
There are no cell phones, no cars, no busy noise.
The only noise are the cows calling for their calves, the cowboys talking to their dogs, to their horses, and the occasional "whooping" noise to keep the cows moving.

Have you ever been on your horse and just listened to the cows calling each other, it's very calming almost therapeutic. It's something I wish I could hear more often.

When I was on my horse moving cows I felt peaceful like I had found an old friend again.
It is a fond memory I have on the ranch. Moving cows, riding my horse, spending time with someone you care about all day. It's something I think about often as the weather warms up.

That's what I love about the Ranch life, there is always something to do, here there are plenty of opportunities to spend time outside and with family.

Then reality hits and you have to get a job, you have to always be busy.
To busy to really enjoy the things you love in life.
If I had all the money in the world I would quit my job, except coaching. That isn't a job to me it's fun, it's something I've always wanted to do.

I would slow down and enjoy the things I love.

Weekend Recap

Friday- I went home early, I released myself from work with my self diagnosis of grumpitis and cramps.
I went home and ate some pasta salad and took a much needed nap on the couch.
Later that night I went to the movie "UP"
Believe it or not but that was my first 3-D movie ever! It was pretty cool, and I got to keep the glasses!
The movie was good, at first it was a little sad but the middle and ending were really good. And you get a sweet pair of glasses.

Saturday- it snowed. Enough said.
I had to put bags over my plants, I didn't want them to freeze.
I went to some friends later that night and made dinner.
Came home and went to bed.

Sunday- I slept in till 9:00 cleaned the house, swept, mopped, vacuumed, did dishes, the house is spotless. Until tonight of course. I made spaghetti for dinner.
Went to bed.

This week is the Volleyball Camp.
It goes from 2:00 to 9:00 for the rest of the week.
I'm excited for the camp. Not excited to get home late all week.

Here is too another Monday, another day another month another hour.
Lordy are things boring right now.

My Weekend

Remember I mentioned I got my hair cut and highlighted?

I've never really done this to my hair before, but I figured what the heck "Change is Good"

This is now what my hair looks like. I like it but I don't think I have caught the blond fever like my sister has!

This past weekend was my sister's graduation. I faced the day with a smile and a very dry sense of humor. I knew I was going to need it when I was asked tons of questions.
And not to mention during the graduation, My Dad was sad his last child was graduating. I even wore a dress.
It was green and pretty, pretty awesome!

Graduation was good, pretty short and sweet but My Lord was it HOT in that gym. I wish schools would invest in AC, it would serve the community well especially during events like graduation. My parents held my Sister's grad party at the house. We ate burgers, salad, chips and dip. I made the desert (like always) all in all it was a great day and a great turnout.

To end the night we had a little camp fire and roasted marshmallow's.
That is my Nephew, always worried about his hair and girls. He has already passed My Mom and Sister in height, but much to his dismay he still has a while before he will catch me!

I'm secretly praying I will keep growing just to compete with him!

The next day, I packed my bags said my goodbye's and headed home.
It was a nice day, my only complain was I was held up at Rodger's pass with road construction. However my little set back allowed me to have this quick scenic photo shoot with my phone!

Mondays just suck

Yesterday was Monday, as I'm sure you are all aware, Monday's suck.

My Monday was a little different from the usual suck.
While I was at work, the boss man's kids came into the office.

Kids: "Can you move your truck? Dad said we can ride 4 wheelers."
Me: "sure, let me just finish this phone call"

So I move my truck and then get on with my day.
3:00 rolls around and I realize "Shoot, I still need to get the mail."

I walk outside to grab the mail, as I'm walking by my truck I look over and realize "Wait a minute!" "What the HELL." "Are you KIDDING me?"

The little brats hit my truck with the 4 wheelers.

(Which I know accidents happen, but what really pisses me off is they DIDN'T tell me, they didn't say anything to anyone.)
So I had to go to the boss man and say "Hey, one of your kids hit my truck with the 4 wheeler"

He said to get an estimate. (These people had better pay for it, they had better not try to jerk me around.)

There were no "Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry."
The kids still haven't said anything to me which is rude.

I wish I could find another job, this job is horrible.