Weekend Recap

The Cast: Anne and Me

The Trophy: 2009 Muley Buck

It's not hunting unless you get a little on ya.

24 inches wide

Yes, that is blood on my cheek. What?

300 yards. One shot. I Love Hunting.

Style is important. Even Hunting.

Slightly New Development

I have decided I want to move.
Well no correction.... I have wanted to move for a while.
But the money prospect has always dropped my brakes and transmission and given me a flat tire.
Translation... I have minimal funds stored.
I am living off my own income.
I can't afford rent.

The New Development of which I speak?
I have set myself a goal.
Will I reach it? I don't have a clue, but just in case cross your fingers.
For most of the houses I really like (I have expensive taste)
And well, the area I want to move too is still rather expensive, the crash hasn't hit too hard yet.
Anyways, I digress.
20% down is on average $40,000.00

My goal? To save my money obviously. In addition to this I'm also going to purge a lot of my crap i.e. Wedding stuff I will NEVER use again, and potentially his wedding ring (maybe... actually no. I changed my mind. Not ready for that one just yet)
I'm going to give a lot of my clothes to a consignment store as well as shoes.... that will be hard.

I may or may not (haven't completely decided yet) buy a camera...
Eeep... say what? Thought you were saving money no?

Yes, but if I buy a good camera, I love photography you see.
If I get good enough, maybe people will buy my pictures or throw me a bone and insist I take their little darling children's senior pictures.
That will of course = money.
Money I can save!
And I will be doing something I love!
Brilliant no?

It's okay don't be jealous, I don't sleep at night there fore I have a lot of time on my hands to ponder my future.

Mind you this goal is a 5-10 year goal I think.... ugh.

Santa,

All I want for Christmas is to win the lottery!
Can you give me a hand?
Well that or a house... either or I'm not the picky sort!

Thank you,
Always a believer.

This just in

The FedEx guy gives me the creeps.

Thanks for the package dude. But I don't want to talk about my weekend....with you.
And stop calling me by name, it makes you even creepier.
Thank you and goodbye.

My Weekend

Saturday: woke up early to go hunting.
Was hunting all day.... didn't see a darn thing.

Sunday: I was dreaming.
My crying woke me up. Wrote about it.
Wished that would happen, but alas this is the real world.

Sat around the house for a while.
Finally went out hunting again.
Walked my butt clean off.
Didn't see anything.

Monday Morning: I was dreaming again.
Again my crying woke me up. I wrote about it again.
This time, I don't wish it would happen like that.
One line "I love you, but...." Never a good thing.

Something I have realized....
My dreams are too real sometimes.
My dreams wake me up too early.
When I wake up I remember it all feel, smell and every other single detail.
And the final thing I have realized
LOVE STINKS.

Stay classy, and have a great Monday.

Neither here nor there

Yesterday after work I decided to work out.
My workout? I picked stair laps.
I ran a total of 6. I thought I was going to die.
Today my goal is 8.
I really like to work hard and push myself. (please tell me you caught that sarcasm)

Last night I cut up meat. Elk meat.
The last time I had done this, it was with Ryan sitting next to me.
As small or unimportant as it may seem, I don't want to replace all those memories.
Every time I do something we used to do by myself, I'm left with a sad bitter feeling.
It sucks.

To make matters worse. Matters??? Maybe my personal emotional roller coaster is a better way to describe that.
On my drive back to the house.
A song came on the radio.
A song I used to listen to often in college.
A song that I used to listen too because I saw me and Ryan in that song.
This song brought back all those memories. The hopeful ones. The hopeful young ones, where you still find yourself looking forward to so much in life. When I was so trustful and happy.
All I had the energy to do about it was cry.
Drive and cry.
I'm getting good at it.
When your alone, you have time to think.
Thinking isn't always a good thing. Thinking makes you remember and makes you feel.
I hate feeling.
Most days I can hide it. Can force the smile anyways.
But when all those feelings bubble over.
They consume me, and it's hard to even breathe.

A boy who reminds me of Ryan so long ago came over.
It was strange sitting and talking to that boy.
Listening to what he wants out of life.
It was like I was sitting with Ryan 6 years ago in his truck listening to his music.
Talking for hours.
Talking about our hopes, what we want in life.
Listening to a song over and over that would leave me crying several years later.

I want to hold on to those times, those memories so bad my mind hurts from trying to remember every detail.
How I felt, How he looked, how he smelled, how he smiled, the butterflies in my stomach.
The way we could just be together and be entertained and so wrapped up in each other the hours would literally fly by.

It's enough to almost make me never leave the house and never turn on my radio again.

That time already?

Oh boy.
Sunday I was out running some errands.
These errands brought me to Pier One. I love that place.
If I had enough control to not blow all my paychecks there, I would work there!

That's not my point....
My point is they already have Christmas stuff out.
Already.

It's not even Thanksgiving yet.
Hunting Season isn't even over yet.
Speaking of hunting season, I need to get out and fill my tags.

I spent about an hour just walking around looking at all the pretty reds and green's.
All Christmas decorations make me drool. I love to decorate for Christmas!
Then another thought? Do I know what I'm getting people for Christmas yet?
I've started my list. I've checked it twice.
Now I'm saving my money.
The theme this year is.... BUDGET!!

So are you ready?

Divisional Volleyball 2009

It's Monday, why don't we catch up?

Thursday we had to play Sunburst @ 1:00.
Sadly our girls just didn't come to play.
It was so frustrating to watch.
We lost in 3.

Losing this game meant in order for us to go to state, we would have to come through the back door. The back door means more games, less rest in between.

Friday we had to play North Star.
This is the team that knocked us out of the tournament last year.
This year that didn't happen.
We beat them in 4.

We had time to go eat and sit for an hour.
Then we were up again.

We played Big Sandy.
This is a team we have beat all year.
We beat them in 4 again.

Saturday morning at 11:00 we had to play Fort Benton.
Through the season and District Tournaments we have played them 5 times.
We have beat them 4 of those 5 times.
However we were worried. This was Divisional Tournaments and Fort Benton was going to come out fired up.
Much to our delight, our girls played absolutely awesome.
We beat Fort Benton in 3.

Our next game was right away.
We had to face Sunburst again.
If we won this game we were guaranteed going to state.
They take the top 2 Divisional teams to State.
If we won this game, we would have to play the Simms Tigers.
No matter what though, we would play for another week.

For some odd reason, we don't know what it is about Sunburst.
We are a much better team then they are.
Big Sandy, Chinook, Fort Benton all beat Sunburst.
Sometimes though, teams just get lucky and get things to fall right for them.

We lost to Sunburst once again in 3.
Ending our 2009 season.
We finished 3rd in Divisional's.

It was disappointing, but overall we had a good season.
Next year we will give it another shot.
Next year if we have to face Sunburst, they will be left broken and bleeding I'm almost sure of it.

Today

The Volleyball Divisional Tournament starts.

We play today at 1:00 against Sunburst.

We don't know a whole lot about them.
Except they are pretty good, they made it this far.

Keep your fingers crossed!

If we win this game we are up tomorrow at 9:00 am.

Catch up...

Halloween Night recap?
Not only did we win the District Tournament!

We got back in time for me to meet friends at the bar.
Can you tell we dressed up?
No really, I dressed up as a Bitch, and a drunk girl!

What??? I thought it was good! One must work with what one has.

The next day I woke up kinda crabby.
I've been crabby since actually.
No I didn't do anything dumb. Don't worry.
How ever, I was in a good mood while I was partaking in the drinking festivities.
The next day I remembered every single snide, dumb, assuming comment I heard.
And it just PISSED me off.



Basically the male gender is dumb and they piss me off.
You don't know me. Don't act like you do.
You aren't important and I don't like you. Any of you.
Leave me alone.
Smothering me is not going to get you what you want.
Asking dumb questions won't get you what you want.
You will never get what you want from me.

Everyday I get more and more crabby because it won't stop.

Your lines aren't cute, smart or even funny.
You all make my skin crawl.

All of this is probably my fault.
I'm looking for Ryan in all the wrong places.
But it's hard to turn your back on a glimmer of something you used to like.
It's hard to turn your back on a reminder of him.

In the end, I get annoyed by their dumbness. Granted they may do one thing that reminds me of Ryan. But they do 1,245.7 other things I can't stand.
It's another kind of let down.
Apparently if your a girl, you can't be friends with boys.

Weekend Recap

Oh what a weekend!

Friday
We played Fort Benton.
We lost to them in 5. It was a good game. It was a very close game.
I was on the edge of my seat!

Saturday
We played Geraldine. A team we lost to 2 times during season. (It was dumb mistakes that made us loose.)
We beat them in 3. It was awesome, I think we shocked them.

We then had a rematch with Fort Benton.
We beat them in 5. It was a good game. It was a very close game.

Because Fort Benton and Us both lost only 1 game to each other. We had to play them again.
Back to Back.

We beat them again.
In 4!
That last point was so great!

All the girls were jumping up and down, and screaming!
Everyone was so excited!!

We are the 2009 7-C District Champions!
This week Divisionals start. We have to finish in the top 2 to go on to state!
Keep your fingers crossed!